Off my rocker

It's funny the way things work out. I mean if you really think about it most things end up different than originally planned. In fact it seems the more planning I try to do the futher from my intended path is were I end up. However on the flip-side should I not do any planning my life tends to fall into a routine that turns everything I do into boredom.

So if every plan we've constructed is sure to drastically change along the way why then do we continue to plan? I'll tell you why it is because we don't have a clue what we want. At one point or another we may think we really know what we want, and some people do, but if we really knew what we wanted I think we be more ambitious tenatious about acheiving our dreams.

When we really want something, do we really want it? Is there some other sort of motivation? Do we only want other things because other people have them or do we want them because it is socially expected?

What types of things do you think you would be without if none of the above impacted you decision on what you really wanted? Would you car be different? You clothes would definitly be different.

I was just kind of sitting in my room and realized that I have a lot of stuff. I was just pondering why I bought half of the things that I have or why I have held on to it so long. It's kind of shocking that there are so many small and insignificant influences in our lives that have a tendency to shape who we are. Kind of a weird post I know but oh well.

Summer=Freetime??

I have just graduated with a BA in Marketing and people always ask me what I want to do with it. I tell them, continue going to school. So I graduated and yet it seems like I still have yet to recieved the bench mark of freedon that is often associated there with.

Also, another school year has bit the dust and summer has come. Usually with summer comes the anticipation of a care free world in which everybody has the same goal, have fun all day everyday. Well, I think that is a disallusioned thought because now that school is out I don't have anymore freetime than I did before and other people seem to have less.

I think that I'm hitting that phase in life were I'm beginning to realize that I can't be a kid forever. I do try my best to keep in touch with my inner child, but it seems like inevitability is closing in on me and I can't escape. There always seems to be talk of the future. Children don't think about the future and neither do I. Kids like to ride bikes, play games, get dirty, and spill ice-cream down the front of their shirt. I like to do the same things that kids do, but it can be difficult because I seam to be stuck in some sort of adult world. My boss doesn't appreciate me getting dirty or playing hide and seek while on the clock. I guess I can understand why, but if I still have to go to school than I think that I should still be somewhat immune fromt he reallity that plagues the real working force.

Maybe I'm just crazy or maybe I have a problem with people ruining my fun. Either way it seems as though either school or work always take their toll at the least opportune moment. I now just rely on the fact that I only have a year and a half left and then who knows? As long as the inner child can last for another ten years I think I can make it through just about anything.